I admit it… I took an unscheduled hiatus. To be honest, I wasn’t in the mood to chronicle what was turning into a series of failures to lose weight. As I said in the very beginning, I might need additional help. Today I’m looking into joining Weight Watchers online and, darn it, I’ve gotta get a food scale.
I will post again soon with my progress.
Today is my birthday. It’s been a pretty quiet day which, in all honesty, I needed greatly. I was supposed to work again today but last night they decided to give me the day off. I did weigh myself this morning…I don’t want to talk about it. I’ve got to try harder. Somehow, my diet needs to be top priority. In my defense, however, these last couple days have been a little challenging. My mood hasn’t exactly been conducive to self preservation but that’s another story all together.
Anyways, tomorrow is the day for celebrating my birthday. My sister, brother-in-law, and maybe a niece or nephew are taking me to dinner. That should be fun.
There’s not much else to write about. Since I don’t have to go to work tomorrow I think I’ll plan my meals for the week. I’ll post them when I finish.
Seriously, I’ve got to get myself together. The diet focus isn’t there, I’m distracted at work, when people talk to me it sounds really loud, and I want to be alone all the time. This is the definition of NOT centered. You have to be centered when you are on a diet. Nice and calm. I’m just not there yet. Nonetheless, I will be stepping on the scale tomorrow. I’ve been walking to work religously and I’m getting faster and faster so even if I didn’t lose any weight I know I am getting fitter. At least that’s something. Tonight for dinner - the usual - Weight Watchers lasagne florentine. For dessert, frozen grapes. I LOVE frozen grapes. I think the red seedless grapes are better tasting than green grapes. Tonight I am making my sandwich to take to work tomorrow. It will be special tuna. Here’s how you make special tuna:
1 can of tuna packed in water.
1 plastic carton of pre-washed and diced vegetables from the grocery store.
Dijon mustard (as much as you want.)
A VERY small amount of mayonaise - like a teaspoon.
Mix all together. It makes enough for about 3 regular sandwiches.
I’m going to go back to reading my book now. I just got done reading The Glass Castle by Jeanette Walls…Uh…That book is a trip. It’s a memoir. There’s all kinds of dysfunction going on in that family. I’m now reading a new release called Redemption by Stacey Lannert. It’s more non-fiction. Stacey killed her father because he was abusing her and she went to jail for it. Then, out of the blue, she was released after being in the joint for 18 years. It’s pretty interesting but really sad. My next book is definitely going to be this year’s Pulitzer Prize winner for fiction: A Visit from the Goon Squad by Egan (I forget her first name.) That’s what’s next on the list. Wow… I’m being such a book nerd right now… Sorry ya’ll.
I’m about to go to work.
I feel dazed today, like I’m not really here. I hate feeling like this. Dieting is the last thing on my mind but so is eating. It’s one of those days when I have no idea how I’m going to complete my shift. I’ll walk to work. Maybe that will put me in better spirits.
I have the day off tomorrow. Perhaps I’ll feel better then. I’m sure you are anxiously awaiting my “play by play” of the Easter festivities yesterday.
Uh…I’m back. I’m sweating and my face looks like a boiled lobster. But I’m feeling like I accomplished something healthy for myself. I am also stoned on endorphins. I’m completely mellow, ya dig?
I am sipping water right now. It is spiked with a Bach flower essence called “Rescue Remedy.” It really makes the water tastes good. Just put a squirt of it in your water and voila, natural stress relief, or so they claim. I just put it in because I have trouble drinking a lot of water so having it taste good or different helps me out.
Well, it’s time to dye Easter eggs at my sisters house. Everybody is in pre-game for tomorrow’s festivities.
I love Ralph’s grocery store. They put stuff on sale that people actually buy. This morning I went there and my Weight Watchers Lasagne Florentine was 2 for $5 as was my almond milk. I am stocked up for the coming week.
So, I’m contemplating going for a very short jog in a couple minutes. I just want to see what I’m capable of doing. I do have to be careful because I have an ankle injury. If it starts to hurt I’ll stop. But I want to “step it up” a notch. After all, I really am an athlete at heart.
I’ve eaten lunch (vegetable/tuna sandwich) and had Kashi cereal for breakfast. I have not strayed so far today. I’m in control…
OK… I’ll do it. I’m going to go. I will report back to you all when I get back and after I catch my breath.
chrissylovesthis asked: Great! I will be in NYC, May 24-31, then down to LA for first 2 weeks of June. So either beginning/mid-May or mid/late June works for me. What works for you? (that's my question)
Dear chrissy, mid May will probably be best. so, pump up the air mattress!
Anonymous asked: thanks for posting. I too have been trying to be patience.
we’ll keep trying together.
So today…um…I’m not sure if I’m allowed to write this because it involves work…We got a memo today informing us that if we blog or use any other social network that we have to behave ourselves and not talk about work …And here I sit - talking about work. The memo said that we can’t make any derogatory statements, or say that the company endorses our convoluted ideas. Fair enough. But I bet if I walked into the head office and told them I wanted to lose weight, they would take one look at me and take the official position that I should do it. But I’m just speculating. Far be it from me to put words in people’s mouths.
The truth is I’m glad the company decided to do that. I’ve seen some pretty lame stuff on the internet about the company I work for. Like one time I saw a picture of a sign that said: “bathroom is for customers only.” Underneath the picture the person wrote that there was the proof that the company I work for doesn’t let the employees use the bathroom. That’s a big fat lie. Quite frankly I like where I work. Sure everyone has days when they don’t want to be there, but for the most part I have a good time. Being around books is a good thing.
Now, on to the diet update…
So far I have eaten everything I said I would eat excluding dinner because it’s only 4:50PM. I just got coffee on my walk to work this morning - that’s a first. No chocolate croissant. However, on my way home from work I bought pretzel bits. I didn’t eat them all though. I realized I was just eating to eat so I threw them away. I have to say that I am still enjoying walking to work. I’ve noticed my legs are getting stronger and I’m walking faster and faster. I get a feeling of accomplishment knowing that almost every day I walk 3.2 miles.
So…Tomorrow. It’s the day before Easter and eating sensibly may be a challenge. There’s going to be a big to-do at my sister’s house on Sunday and tomorrow there’s going to be a lot of food prepping. I am going to concentrate on what I eat and try to avoid nibbling on food too much unless it’s vegetables. I suppose I should weigh myself again soon. After Easter feels right.
I’m trying my hardest to be patient.
It’s hard when I spent my whole day dealing with modem and printer problems. I don’t like the phone. I don’t like talking that much. When I do use the phone I usually only talk to people I know and like. So you can imagine how irritated I have become spending what was supposed to be a leisurely day off talking for 6 hours to tech support people. The fourth time I called my internet provider I was about ready to blow a gasket. I thought it only fair that I warn the poor lady on the line that I was very frustrated. The long and the short of it is this: She decided that I needed a new device. She put in an order for it to be sent to me. Two working business days is how long it will take. Ok… I’ll find other ways to pass the time. So I hang up and become extraordinarily depressed because after all that time and having thought that the problems were fixed I still had no internet access. Then I tried one last time. The computer all of a sudden recognized everything and went online as if nothing had happened. So here I sit…I wasted a precious day off and am right back where I was at the beginning of the day (only now it’s the end of the day and I have to go to bed soon.)
Ok. Let’s change the subject and move on to more important things. Tomorrow’s meal plan.
BREAKFAST - rice cakes and almond butter
LUNCH - special tuna and veggie sandwich
DINNER - Weight watchers Lasagne Florentine.
I’m starting off easy. I’m not in the mood to do a whole lot of cooking and I realize that I could probably make more interesting food choices but… tough, I’m in a bad mood.
It’s important to put all this in perspective though…It’s Easter time and I need to cool it. While sometimes I have serious doubts about my faith and beliefs I can’t help but show some reverence. God or not, let’s be honest, Jesus really took one for the team and when I think about that, my computer problems and my diet challenges seem idiotic in comparison.